Climbing up out of a dream, I felt this word in my hand.
It was a word of power there, a ritual, a stone. Here it has no meaning, just memory. Gossamer webbing hanging from it, broken and fading.
There I was on a bus, over and over, day after day. A school bus, but the passengers were older and so was I. They were strangers at first, but slowly we found each other’s eyes, the connections formed, and the center of the web was the word. The word was lotham.
They and I were allies, though the danger was unclear. The word between us beating like a heart. I loved them, I knew them, they were lotham.
When we left the bus each day, we walked together. Hands on weapons, backs together. And every day there were more of us, more of us were lotham.
Dreams like this are echoes of themselves, repeating again and again, the sand shifting but always the word. The word pounding in my head. The word that means don’t let go, hold onto me. Lotham. Lotham. Lotham.
I am suspicious of words that come without cost, that have no blood tax. But it sits in my hand and I have no where to put it but here.
Take it. I brought it for you.
Originally appeared on Substack – reposted here prior to deleting there.