Theban Diary #4

This summer’s production marks the third time my life and this script have intersected. Today, let’s talk about the first time.

CAVEAT EMPTOR : I’m about to tell a story from when I was in high school, circa 1997. My memory is dogshit. If anyone else who was actually there somehow reads this and remembers it differently, they are probably right.

Photo: Matt Hardy / Model: Lily Medlock

If you’ve ever wondered why I am like this about theater, it would probably be important context to know that I was exposed to Bertolt Brecht before I was seventeen. In Troup County, GA – before the turn of the millennium, my peapod little brain already knew who Thespis was, the power of the triangle, all of the words of ‘No Diggity’, and that Neil Simon is for the squares. Much of this is because my high school was blessed with absolutely aberrant teachers running the Drama Department. The same year we put on Anouilh’s ANTIGONE, we also did The Caucasian Chalk Circle. Yes, if you want to be truly pretentious you need to get a big head start in your formative years. I think our director was working on an MFA during the summers, so he used our productions for class credit. I only remember that because he -unwisely- told us his professors were coming to see our production of Chalk Circle. I had this bit of stage business where I was supposed to open a giant book and blow a small amount of flour off the page to sell that it was old and dusty. The effect hadn’t really worked that well during rehearsal, so I decided to put probably ten times as much flour as normal so that the performance he was being graded on would have some extra juice. I blew so much flour into the air that it covered me and my scene partner and I ad-libbed a completely unnecessary ‘WHEW! DUSTY!’. The look of pure hate he shot me as I came off stage is something I’ll carry with me to my grave. Later on, he told me that Brechtian theater does like to over emphasize the stage effects to make them transparent and artificial, so he was probably not going to be penalized too much for my help.

In my defense, I have no idea why I did any of that. Impossible to reconstruct this far down the time stream.

But, back to ANTIGONE.

Our production was staged outside. Platforms and acting blocks, a couple of ramps – all painted black. (some of you are pointing at the screen like Dicaprio right now) The whole cast wore black pants and white dress shirts – except for a few additional costume pieces here and there. We wore no shoes. It was a long time ago, the dawn of the internet, so people being into feet was something we were, as yet, blissfully unaware of. Our director had taken the Chorus monologues and chopped them up, splitting lines among the ensemble, pulling that role closer to a more traditional Greek chorus. He also, I learned weeks later, cut out big chunks of Creon’s speeches for time. I played Creon. These two facts have no connection.

This was probably my first exposure to a play where the props and costuming was purposefully representative. These are not the literal clothes, these wooden swords are not the real swords. It’s just a symbol. Something in my peapod brain cracked a little bit. The SYMBOL is more than the THING. Instead of this specific object, this is ALL POSSIBLE VERSIONS OF IT.

This is to say I thought it was super clever when I found a piece of nylon rope and spray painted it gold to wear as a CROWN. Someone in the audience, a younger sibling of one of the cast, audibly asked ‘why does he have a snake on his head?’.

Why indeed.

I remember:

  • the actress playing the Nurse had a Scottish accent, I think just because she could kind of do an okay one?
  • the actor playing Haemon, my friend Nick, was something of a hot commodity in those days and him kissing an UPPERCLASSMAN was a bit of a scandal, she briefly caught feelings, it was a whole thing
  • the actress playing Antigone was a legendarily good on-stage cryer
  • The climactic ‘Take away the stones!!!’ fell a little flat when we all just had to sort of walk a few feet away from the playing space and then awkwardly turn around and walk back on for bows

I don’t remember — having any sort of thought about the play itself or any sort of larger meaning it might have. I was a Drama kid, I was in all the plays, this was another one. But a fair amount of the words stuck with me.

You are like dogs that lick at everything they smell.

Antigone finally gets to be herself.

TAKE AWAY THE STONES.

It is strange to look back, nigh on 30 years later. It didn’t have meaning for me then. It was just something I did. As a person who has been involved in theater my entire adult life, it is interesting how rare repeats are. When I was younger, each play was its own singular event, here and gone and never again. But now, I’ve had shows that I’ve been in multiple productions – I’ve directed the same show more than once. I think I talked about it a good bit years ago when I directed OKLAHOMA! – that the great works are always connected, cheating time or at least circumventing it. I’m here, I’m there, I’m 17, I’m 46, I’m 10, I’m a thousand years old.

So, that was the first time. I’m not planning on any direct homage or reference to this ancient production – except for maybe that gold rope crown. Maybe the audience just wasn’t ready for it yet.

Theban Diary #2

Photo shoot this weekend! I love directing a photo shoot, boy howdy. Mainly because I wish I could take actually good photos – so instead I point my friend Matt’s actual talent at what I’m vaguely gesticulating towards. An image can be a perfect expression of an idea – or maybe several – evoking an entire world of feeling, frozen in a moment. Or if nothing else, just looking rad as hell. People often forget that the majority of the purpose of art is just to rule.

We’ll be shooting in my beloved’s theater at UGA Dance Department, so of course I’m simply salivating about being to have some real goddamn negative space to play with. BIG EMPTY pleases this little peapod brain of mine – and it is especially satisfying as an environment to consider the character of Antigone. So much of the script focuses on her isolation – on being separate and cut-off – by bloodline, by destiny – almost to the point of treating her as non-human. I enjoy the ambivalence. The script has a bent towards deifying her – but also so many images of the unnatural, bordering on paranormal.

You come from a people for whom the human vestment is a kind of straitjacket: it cracks at the seams. You spend your lives wriggling to get out of it. Nothing less than a cosy tea party with death and destiny will quench your thirst. / CREON

The overtly theatrical tone of the play also lends itself to this – the image of her being pushed on stage to play a part. A role that she chooses, but also is desperate to deny. Deny what it means to be Oedipus’ daughter, to be Jocasta’s daughter, to be Antigone. A whole section of the photo shoot is putting an Oedipus mask, complete with bloody tears, on our model – in wide, in closeup.

I have a pack of extra masks, maybe throw some on whatever bodies I have to put in the background, out of focus – looming, judging, demanding. Weird photos are the best, boy howdy.

Sometimes I think I should just do weird photo shoots and skip the attached play, podcast, other media, etc.

Theban Diary #1

Now I lay me down to show prep, may my course be blessed by Hermes Threewizards. The future is unclear and storms unpredictable, but still I can put extra caulk between the boards of my hull and lay in as many oranges and packs of Buldak as this craft will allow. Preparing to direct a play is basically just an emotional exercise as nothing you plan will survive the first encounter with the enemy — the enemy is basically every component of the thing. Cast, crew, set, costumes, illness, cowardice, caprice, and Capri Sun.

To catch you up: I am directing a production of Antigone (Jean Anouillh/ translated by Lewis Galantiere) this summer. Auditions are in June, show opens in August. This is my 14th time in the director’s chair with this company, stretched over a couple of decades. I’m a goddamn warhorse at this point. The days of directing out of social pressure, vague artistic yearning, or purely atavistic conviction are behind me. Basically I only direct these days when I’m legitimately excited about a project and have every intention to get real weird with it. Or, more to the point, I work on projects when the ceaseless alarm clock in my mind sounds that I haven’t done something sufficiently cool to justify this entire plasma-type personality matrix I’ve been rocking.

I was chatting with some other theater people recently and I dropped some questionably sage wisdoms over pancakes. Maturity is just accepting what truly motivates you – boiling away all of the vague trappings of success, art, and progress. For me, everything I do ties back to wanting cute girls to think I’m funny. That’s the real engine all this creative activity has been running on – moments of beauty and truth are completely unplanned and are more by-product than goal. Wild to think the lengths I have gone to make things of ever-increasing difficulty and complexity using nothing more than a 12 year old’s survival strategy – the forge of all that I have made is nothing more than a hastily assembled Easy Bake Oven with racing flames painted on the side.

And this show appeared early in that juvenile charlatan’s development. My high school performed this script, way way back in the late 90’s. (WAY BACK) What artistic style or proclivities I have in theater can almost be traced 1:1 back to this production specifically – and generally everything my high school drama teacher laid down as first principles in my peapod brain. He was getting his MFA in Theatrical Direction, so our high school productions were purposefully academic – I was exposed to Bertolt Brecht far too early to every truly recover. By it’s very nature high school theater – and community theater(!) – are art forms of limitation — usually financial. Leaning into the more imaginative and primal language of the stage has an immediate advantage when you can’t afford much more than a couple of flats and some chairs. But, don’t worry, I learned absolutely the wrong lesson as usual. A chair on an empty stage is IT, girl. A voice, two voices, three voices. The darkness. The light. The space that can be anything, can be everything, can be nothing. My artistic colleagues roll their eyes at my sets made of boxes and benches and empty air, much as I sneer at the door that needs a doorknob on BOTH SIDES.

I’ve also had the rare opportunity to have a trial run at directing this before. A few years ago I stumbled upon a copy of the script in a used bookstore and felt compelled (enticed by fate?) to put together a staged reading. I’ve been thinking about this show for years before, and the more I think about it (and the reading confirmed) – is that it doesn’t need any help. It doesn’t need to be set in Aghanistan or even Paris during the occupation. It’s always now. Every time I come back, it’s more topical – more to the point. Maybe just the years of watching fascism rise here, inarguable – impossible to not recognize – have made the script hit harder and harder. It doesn’t ask the audience to imagine a world without fascism — that is a pure impossibility. It’s asking how will you choose to live with it. Or perhaps die under it.

This is a play about sound, about voices. The little human moments before the machinery of it pull the god in Antigone to the fore. And then the goddamn bars when Creon and she argue. What a strange thing to recognize as familiar, the curse in the blood, the glorious idiocy of revolt.

I know more now, I have more tricks up my sleeve. This time I’ll catch it, this time it won’t get away from me. Maybe.

A chorus is a weapon built to assault heaven. Human energy brought together, bound by time, focused and sharp. Let’s point a gun at god and demand that they dance.

The Tudyk/Pikachu Intolerance Litmus

Image provided by:margaretpoplin.com
Image provided by:
margaretpoplin.com

Sometimes we perceive ourselves on the sidelines — when we witness intolerance, or hate, or discrimination. When we don’t personally know a Muslim, a black person, a woman, or a gay.

I mean, those people are rare, right?

But I get it — it’s hard to get enraged when you don’t have a personal connection to the subject of abuse. They’re just concepts. Not people, not our friends, not anything worth breaking the social contract for — calling out some casual or professional racism, sexism, trans-hate, etc. etc. — or just general shitty, rude behavior.

So, here’s what I do when I find myself waffling on whether or not I should speak up or show support for an individual or group. An individual or group that is getting worked over by systemic violence, workplace discrimination, or any of the thousand-thousand petty assaults humanity heaps on the Tribe of Other.

Just mentally replace whatever person or group is being attacked with something universally good. Something that every single one of us can agree is wonderful — and would provoke all of us to righteous rage if  we witnessed them being maligned or assaulted in any way.

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Alan Tudyk pictured with Smolder Mode activated.

I pretend that they’re talking about Alan Tudyk and Pikachu.

Do you have any idea how fucking pissed I would get if someone was rude to Alan Tudyk in front of me? Especially if he and Pikachu were having some sort of picnic? You know, snuggling and eating cucumber sandwiches and reading fairy tales out of a big leather book. LIKE THEY DO.

“Shut your face, man. Alan Tudyk is a national fucking treasure and I won’t have you slander his good name. Of course we all his enjoy his work in Firefly — but have you even considered his less known roles? Like in Knight’s Tale or Dodgeball? Have you even considered his voice work? His voice work? I,Robot AND Wreck-It Ralph – phenomenal work. And Pikachu is a cuddly lightning mouse. A. LIGHTNING. MOUSE. THAT IS CUDDLY.”

That’s the trick. Make it personal. Use whoever you need to inspire the Godly Wrath. [Restrained and classy wrath please — anyone who would diss Pikachu is beneath soiling your own hands with physical violence.]

Because they are people. They are real. They are [nearly] just as important as Alan Tudyk and Pikachu. If Alan and Pikachu want to get married, that is a blessed event. If some of my money will keep Alan and Pikachu from getting killed in a country I’ll never visit, then please take some — I would just waste it anyway. If Pikachu wants to evolve into a girl Pikachu or a boy Pikachu, I know Mr. Tudyk is still going to be right by their side, and I should too. If Mr. Tudyk and Pikachu want to worship in a mosque, or a synagogue, or a church, or an empty field, or on the rim of an active volcano that is their right and I can’t imagine why anyone would have a problem with it.

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Pika!

Because even though I’ve never met them, I know that they are awesome. They are worthy of my love, worthy of my respect. And wouldn’t it be great if we extended the same certainty to the rest of the human beings, animals and Pokemans that share this dimension with us?

Just a thought.

Can I add that it is a sad state of affairs where Google Image Search doesn’t yield a single picture of Alan and Pikachu together? If anyone more photo manipulative than I could make that happen, you would get 750 points for the Hufflepuff.

UPDATE: 750 Points to Hufflepuff for Margaret Poplin! Thanks, Margaret! She did the photo manipulation – not sure about the pic of Mr. Tudyk, but the Pikachu art came from here.